The pages of my calendar filled my desk drawer. I had to discard some. But discarding days brings a feeling of uneasiness. Caring for days and filling them appropriately adds to the joyous accumulation. The symbol of this truism was my desk drawer.
For several years our secretary gave me a garden calendar with each day describing another wonderful aspect of gardening. The reverse sides of the calendar pages were plain, so they could become useful note paper, if the contents seemed disposable, but often the information was so helpful and interesting that I add it to the “do not discard” pile. Both the recycling pile and the “do not discard” pile continued to grow. So I finally had to sort and remove some days.
The care of days remains a challenge. If you want to add to the challenge, consider the many rewarding pastimes you could take up. What a mix of things to do or to neglect, to save or to discard! But each day involves its choices. Will this activity ever be useful to anyone again? Will this investment of time, and the desire to remember and hold onto it make any sense down the line?
To care for days recognizes the primary gift any of us ever get– the amazing gift of this day and the choices and opportunities in it. My chief sin will be to reject this gift of time, and to treat it as a waste. Still a day of rest is not a waste, nor time spent in the contemplation of beauty or goodness or the One Source of all that is.
I have exhausted myself in plenty of hours discarding other people’s accumulations, including those of people I dearly love. I must let go of some days, and memories, and collections. Then what remains? Only the love itself, and the desire to find some new expression of it that does not just sit and fill a desk drawer. An expression that is not just so many words, or things.
Each day is new and different. If it was just repetition, without a different approach or slant to it, then the tedium would make the task of disposal easier. Why save any day if the next will be just like it? When is that ever a problem?
These calendar pages are just symbols. Wednesday, September 20th, lists fifteen plants that purportedly possess aphrodisiac powers. It then reports that only one on the list has a verifiable impact, and that is not as an aphrodisiac. I think I can do without that one